to clarify and respond to many who have been asking about me....thank you for your concern....i am at waiting for an upcoming surgery.  throughout my life i have had to deal with a condition that has continually up ended me.  i will spare myself and you all the details.....but i wanted to let you know i have appreciated the calls and emails.  the surgery is scheduled for the 21st and is only the first step of a two part surgery that will again force me to withdrawal from life for a bit.  it hasn't been easy starting and stopping over and over again during my life, but the hope remains that God will entirely heal me of my condition...but only His will be done.....that is...only if He supplies the strength and hope that my, often times unfaithful heart needs to make it through each time.

thank you again

matt